Music is the poetry of the air. ~Richter
Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness. ~Maya Angelou, Gather Together in My Name
... healing myself as I became a soul music healer... while pulling each string of my heart- euh, harp !
After the Soul Healing Workshop, when I got back home, I did with the harp what I could do on a keyboard, playing a melody while reading the score. First song that came to mind for the harp was 'Love Peace Harmony Sacred Soul song'. At first, it truly sounded much like when people new to music learn to play 'twinkle twinkle little star' ...
Then, one morning, after the Divine Channel early training, I spontaneously went on the harp and played 'God's Light' - the fingers were literally playing by themselves and my mind would watch in disbelief : how was I able to make such quick progress ?
As trained musicians know, the normal learning process, for any instrument, is to do your scales, do your practices - practice again and again- to train your mind and transfer the playing reflex into the subconscious mind to gain ease, and flow. But this time, the experience was totally different; it felt like the 'command' to each finger did not go through my mind...
When being curious is a blessing.
I should confess that curiosity has led the way many times on my path - after all, it did lead me to rent a harp to go to the Soul Music Healer workshop. This type of situation in my life is a recurring theme - curiosity is a strong pulling force. So, I became curious to see what I could play if I would stop 'thinking' how to play. That is probably when I truly realized the effect of the Soul Music Healer treasure : I played (or was it me ?) better if I would look away from the harp or close my eyes and ... and let the fingers play as if they had a mind of their own. Remember, I never played the harp, in this lifetime, prior to June 2013!
As strange as it felt at first, it became a true reward - each time a great meditative moment for me - to go sit in the meditation room and play the harp. It deeply touched me and opened my heart. Many times, I would hear the note in my head and my fingers, while my eyes were closed, would automatically fall on the appropriate strings : wow ! This is a musician's dream come true. I could also feel surrounded when I would play, I should say I would feel blessed - truly blessed.
It took me a little extra dose of courage to play for others ... but I got around the 'shyness' during forgiving practices, over the phone, by playing God's Light. Then, one day, I finally had the courage to offer a blessing to a friend, again over the phone. Meanwhile, as I was also noticing transformation in myself through learning the Tao Jing ... all of this made me feel like a child who slowly starts to walk, gains confidence and starts exploring further and further with joy and amazement.
If there were any doubts remaining in me, by the end of 2013, I knew I was a Soul Music Healer in my heart and soul. This profound desire to play harp since childhood was a soul calling on my spiritual path -- most likely, this is where the harp playing longing came from. I don't know if you have ever experienced that feeling; but for me, suddenly, the scattered puzzle pieces of my life were falling into place. All these previous music gigs were making sense, suddenly the reason for playing music at the Sunday mass also made sense ... crying and weeping of joy, my heart opened tremendously through all these profound realizations and I was filled with gratitude ... thank you the Source, thank you Tao, thank you Divine, thank you Master Sha!
Next ...
... the first healing blessings 'in person' -- creating healing miracles...
